I remember being very lonely and just.... lost.
Well. Perhaps it was only a coincidence.
But I can't tell if I'm talking about your physical or mental location.
I think both.
I just want you to want to be with me...
and once you do, have it STAY that way for more than a week or two.
I don't think I can take another minute of feeling like I annoy you,
I disgust you,
you don't like my hair,
you think my clothes look funny,
you think I'm fat,
you think I'm stupid.
Some people tell me I'm beautiful.
Maybe it's a foolish thing--believing them on occasion.
But I honestly wonder if you agree with them and just don't say it,
or if my fearful suspicions are accurate.
Tell me what I'm doing wrong and I'll change it in an instant,
even if I do attempt to save face.
I think you know that.
"Bitterman, I don't want to be sad anymore. I think tonight we'll throw a party..."
But you are beautiful! :3
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